Renew

Restore

Rebuild

Renew

I want to be made new again.

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Last year, I wrote a really long list of areas I wanted to grow in for the year 2011. I've come close to achieving some of them, failed miserably in some others. And for the next year, I feel like all I want to do/learn can be summed up in one sentence: to know God.

I just want to know Him.

Whatever comes my way in the next year, I want to know Him.

I want to feel His nearness, hear His thoughts, see His visions, have His mind, bear His heart, speak His words, live His love. That is all.

No "I want to be this or that"s. No "I must be more...." or "I must be less..." statements. When the focus is on me, things spiral out of control.

I just want Jesus.

And I want that to be enough for me. I want to know what it means to have Him as my everything. That even if I were the only person left on this earth, and all I had was Jesus, I would be contented and satisfied and joyful.